camwhoring while waiting for the expected to arrive

its a long day and its not even over yet.

i am still stuck at office writing speech for my CEO. the event will next week on monday. so i still have tomorrow. its the same event for the past few years so im cracking my head trying to add new points. and here i am, blogging away first. ngahaha, who knows i might get an idea when rambling silly in here?

this morning, stupid traffic jam. the jam started even before the sungei besi toll. thank god i called my lil sis before going to work. so we had to detour and used the seri kembangan route and took the exit from seri petaling to kl. even along the serdang road i can see the heavy traffic. god, i cursed baskets to the government.

arrived at office. just switched on the computer. then nature call. when i was done, saw a miscalled from my colleague. i forgot there was a meeting. im such a dunce i know. my forgetfulness will be the death of me some day.

around 11ish, went to pick up Sayang. his parents came back from jeddah for good. so we had to bring a big car for the luggage. went to um to get the car. arrived at airport around 1230pm, the flight should arrive at 11am. the flight was delayed to 130pm. thank god we didnt stick to time though. so to kill time went to have lunch at food court. killing expensive, man! the usual lauk pauk i took usually will cost me rm3 but that kakak charged me rm10. luckily, Sayang was fortunate he got 50% off because he was mistaken for airport staff. i should have let him pay for me!

PILs finally passed through the checking at 330pm. stopped for half an hour at KLIA mosque. send them home first. then went back to office at 5pm. people are starting to go back home and we are going to the office. how losers can we be?

so now im stuck out of ideas for CEO's speech while gossipping away with azwan and yatoque. and its 8pm already.

Sayang when can we go back?

please help me

dear to anyone who is willing to help me.

i have a slight problem here.

i am such a dunce in this computer tech thingy. i found a template that i really like. but the thing is its in a classic mode. since i am a dunce in this thing, i would like to change it to new blogger template. its easier for me to use it and and understand it, of course.

so, anyone who's kind enough to help me out? for free i hope.

ngeh ngeh.

another stupid step

hi peeps.

got to work a bit late, around 11ish. bought breakfast nasi lemak and laksa johor to ibu's. the family is off to umrah but i didnt send them to the airport. it'd be too late to the office then. heh.

i skipped lunch. well after that big breakfast i woludnt know where to put anymore food. since i started fasting, i can manage to control my eating habits. wuhoo. i wonder how long this will last. heh.

news is out. anwar has been arrested by the police. and it's even before the deadline 2pm. i have the feeling that i dont want to live in malaysia any longer. i dont feel safe anymore. and sad to say, its not that anwar is making me not safe but our own government. it is so corrupted and i cant just tell how i hate them for doing what they are doing.

UMNO is not like it used to be. UMNO that we know fight for people. though they do say that they look after their own people but i dont see any of it. i mean, how come they are so many rempits, drug addicts and drop-outs? shouldnt they be doing something about it if they really do care about us? nope, they are just a bunch of orang gile kuasa.

i really pity anwar. he is not being justified fairly. they just arrested him based on baseless allegations. what if i go up to the police and report that i have been sodomised by badawi and najib and it was a fantastic threesome? i'll bet that i would have been shut up forever or blown up to pieces just like Altantuya.

i think that the government is trapped by its own trap. and the natural thing they would do is to lash out at anwar. the usual scapegoat. they are so scared that anwar will take over. if the evil is in power, it is hard to tumble them down no matter how innocent you are. and they can do just whatever. like arresting without any base. or manipulate facts.

its no use of reading papers nowadays because it is government-controlled. where is the freedom of speech? journalism should have this act, to view any opinions unbiasedly. like other democratic countries. no wonder we are still stuck like this because we are the robots of the heartless government.

and you condemned people who dont support their own. tell me then, dear pak lah, how are we going to love you if you dont love us? relationship is a two-way channel of emotions. instead you screwed up big time. and the biggest mistake you did was to hike oil price at the time that people are pissed of with you. you make them angrier. it is so obvious that you are trying to cover the loses with the increase price.

please dont be such a selfish and ignorant b*****d.

what is it if you get an allowance of rm10k for fuel every month? u wont suffer like me then with a small income plus no big fuel allowance. ok, of course everyone knows that a PM should be well off but cant you be considerate. after all, your responsibility is to look after us. not just saving your ass.

did you think that by arresting anwar will win our hearts back? of course not. duh. even the police on the news last night was stupid. if he couldnt speak english please just say it in malays. we are malays after all. i guess anwar doesnt understand a word of your gullible english. even i dont understand you.

i think its useles of writing this down. because, if the governement do suddenly take action will be to arrest me for talking bad about them. see what i mean? they dont understand that its us who chose them to be leaders. if i vote them to arrest me for just voicing my own thoughts, then it would have been a very bad and unwise decision right?

i rest my case. better off watching a movie and eating lovely junkfood.

or i could buy a ticket to england tonight. hahah.

nasi ayam penyet

i am fasting again today. since i have no eating agenda this afternoon, i am going to take a nap. then i will continue to surf for FOOD. saya rasa macam nak nasi ayam penyet laaa.... siapa yang baik hati untuk memenuhi my need?

Gila teruja seh..da telan seteguk air liur da!

i am fasting today..ooohhh

today i am fasting. and i know i shouldn't be saying this but my tummy is growling with hunger. i can hear them. and i can feel the rumblings too. shows that i can no longer stand hours of no food. please help me!

it is 5.36pm. Sayang is on his way to pick me up. its one of the rarest days that he has to send me to work first. since he brought a cockroach into the car this morning and couldn't be found until now, i did not desire a trip alone should the damned cockroach came out and scare the hell out of me. so, he has to send me to work first.. it is raining quite heavily, i'll bet he's taking time, what with all the traffic jam down to my place.

the good thing about fasting is that you tend to crave for food. and i mean all sorts of food. and at times you cannot really decide what to eat. i guess thats why people spend more than they should in Ramadhan. ;p so what i did today was browsing through the internet and salivating over food. yes FOOD. the creamy cheese pasta, perfectly grilled lamb shank, pan-grilled salmon with lemon sauce, lovely sushi and desserts. dont let me start on desserts, plus i cant remember all of the names though.

so, by the time you cannot think of another food to crave, then it's time to break your fast. i mean the activity of dwelling on food just occupy your whole time! hahah. plus, you'll appreciate more of what you eat when you havent eaten for the whole day.

oh wait. i'll continue later on. after breaking fast, that is. heheh. Sayang has arrived. yeay!

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updated

i had a really good dinner. i guess nothing can beat mom's good old cooking. even though there is no creamy cheese pasta. haha. but fret not, i will have my share of that, sometime around this week. i usually treat myself to a good meal since i earned for it, aight? just to give me some motivation to drag myself up early in the morning and a hellish drive to work.

ibu and everyone has gone to seremban, visiting the Grandparents. they will be going to Jeddah to perform umrah this wednesday. i dont know whether i can get time off to send them but we'll see how everything goes. heheh.

i am feeling sleepy now. i think i'll fast again tomorrow. it seems that my body can function properly even though with all the hunger pangs. i am just waiting for my facial mask to dry then i'll turn myself in.

tata.

where my absent-mindedness has lead to...

i am feeling shite.

yesterday, i got off work earlier and went to pick up Sayang at his work. we planned to watch Hancock and berbuka puasa at Alamanda. ok lah tu kan.

as usual, my mind will always wanders and imagines things. my favourite game is to imagine 'What If'. just for fun sake lah. like, what if im rich in the next 2 years, will i still be using the same car (or will it be a new Honda Accord? ;p) and what bags will be on my arm and so on..you know lah kan..but that is a little fragment of my imagination. heheh.

well, as i were sitting beside Sayang, i was imagining that i am living in England (next 5 years lah). i was listing in my mind the things i would do if i were there. ;p then suddenly, i happen to glance at the petrol meter. oklah, 2 notches, jap lagi kene isi minyak nih. then, my mind went blank. i was trying to figure where the hell did i put my petrol money (i have a small pouch to keep petrol money, its more organised this way ;p). the last time i can recall back is two days ago when i took out the money (which happens to be my anniversary la kan) to fill up at a petrol pump. i gave Sayang RM50 and waited for the change. usually we fill up RM40 but Sayang said takper lah because da blinking meter. i was like, okay.

while waiting for Sayang filling up, and i had nothing to do, i absent-mindedly counted the money. just to see how much is left until next salary. AHA. this is the weird part. i never counted the money because... i dont know. maybe i just want it to be there everytime i took some out. i believe that God is Pemurah, so i bet He will sympathise with me for being selalu kesempitan wang. heheh. and zilch. thats the only thing i remembered what i did with the money. i couldnt remember a thing at all what happen after that.

so, i was sitting quietly when suddenly i lurched and opened the dashboard. just in case i threw it in there. none. Sayang was astonished.

'Sayang, u cari ape?'

'uh...tengah cari duit minyak'

'Baby, tak ingat ke mane simpan?ur handbag xde? korek sume dalam dashboard tuh, mane tau terselit'

'dah...3 kali dah..macamne ek, i cant remember at all what i did with the money'

'ke u ada belanja kot?'

'eh xla kan?!! mesti la i ingat kalau i belanja!'

aku dah memang muka gelabah. somewhere deep in my heart, i believe its somewhere waiting to be found. but i don't know where it is waiting. uwaaaaaaa

i searched the car until we reached home. and i searched some more. Sayang wasn't in the mood anymore. so we cancelled Alamanda. (sedih aku tau). aku sambung cari lagi dalam bilik. mana tau ada terselit kat bawah katil kan. yilek. i was feeling down. Sayang pun macam malas nak ckp dengan aku.

after magrib, he went out with his friend. i went to Ibu's. continuing with the search. still couldnt be found anywhere. my mom, as usual, mestilah bising2 kat aku kan. but i just let her because i know its my own fault.

'ntah-ntah kau ada belanja bukan-bukan tuh. x ingat'

WHY DOES EVERYBODY THINK THAT I USED THE MONEY? AS IF I WOULD FORGET THAT. IF I DO, KILL ME THEN.

pastu dia bg duit. hahah.

'kau bayar balik. ibu bukan nak berkira tapi its time you take responsibilities. tak kesah la brape lama kau nak byr but just pay back'

'ye ke ibu. tapi kan nanti ibu x cukup duit' (saja buat ayat kesian..hahah)

'amek je la tp bayar balik. kau ni. baca Quran tuh. bagi kuat ingatan sket. solat tu, jangan lambat2. jgn laju2 sangat nanti Allah susah nak terima. kau ingat duit ni senang nak dapat ke pkai hilang je?'

'ye la..tau..tapi Allah kan Maha Pemurah. tak payah nak mintak2 kat org, dia terus suruh ibu bagi kat sarah..hehhe'

'eh ke situ plak..bukan bg, bayar balik'

'YELAH'

mak aku ni x sudah2 suruh bayar balik plak. yelah, bulan depan gak saya akan bayar..hehe.. so, when i told Sayang he said why did i accept the money, malu la dia. tapi i kan pandai memujuk.

'xpe sayang. ibu kata nak byr sebulan RM50 pun ok. kalo credit card kan x bole buat mcmtu. mane satu kita nak, loan with interest ke or loan interest-free?'

so, berjaya la saya memujuk ditambah dengan aksi-aksi yang lain..hahah.

bila nak tido malam tuh, i lay watching the ceiling (my favourite past time before i got married). dah lama aku x buat macam tuh. Sayang came out of the toilet and saw me.

'Baby, u duk pkir lagi ke about the money?'

i just kept quiet. well, i didnt know what to say exactly.

'takpe la baby. da memang xde rezeki. lain kali sayang berusaha la ingat ape yang sayang buak ok?'

'ok. sorry susah kan u. i sayang u'

my heart lightened a bit. walaupun mmg salah aku pun. but somehow, i feel that i will find that money. its just a matter of time.

come to think of it, i never ever misplace money. maybe its due to the fact that i tend to spend before placing them anywhere. haha. it shows that my absent-mindedness has reached to the limits.

jadi pemgajaran nya ialah make sure u spend all your money before you misplaced them. baru boleh pening kepala pikir mane hilang duit. macam pempuan bawah ni. kahkahkah.

boleh ke macam tu? kehkehkeh.

my 1st year anniversary of marriage ~ 7.7. 2008

i am writing this down so that i can look back and remember this particular day.

yesterday was my first anniversary of marriage. at first, i couldn't really believe it. time passed by like lightning. it's like i blink only once and suddenly it's a year already. so what have i done in a year of hitching?

i've been having fun, obviously. getting to know my hubby better (not that i know him to the core yet, still a lot to learn. heh). mind you though, knowing each other for 5 years before marriage is nothing like it in a year of being married to him. instead, you will learn different things, which i won't go into details. i'll let you guys venture the marriagehood yourself. heheh.

somehow, one thing i learned about being married is that you always have to live up to peoples' expectations. it's like everything that you used to do before getting hitched is not appropriate any more after being a wife and husband. why oh why? we are only human beings, for god sake.

another thing is the pressure people give on getting a baby. yes, i know that in islam, the significant reason of marriage is to extend good family bloodline. but come on guys, you cant simply force it out of the belly if there isnt one, can you? please,have some sensitivity here. i thought orang-orang tua la pandai bercakap halus, ni tidak. macam taktau je proses nak dapat baby mcmane. ok la if the conversation goes like this, xpelakan..

A: eh, xpregnant lagi ke? (a bit harsh i must say but i can let this pass cause i can be blunt too.hehe) or another one, 'xde ape-ape lagi ke?' (ni berlapik sket la)

me: hmm, xde lagi la...(buat muke mcm xbersalah)

A: xpela, xde rezeki lagi la tuh. lgpun muda lagi, ok la tuh.

me: haah. tu la, tgah berusaha sungguh2 ni. hahah:D

but i REALLY HATE this one.

B: nape xde lagi baby? kau ni, planning ke? xbaik la planning2 ni. muda-muda la nak ada baby. senang bile da tua nanti.

me: mcmane planning, bole ajar?(hati panas ni)
tapi kan, ada je yg planning tu terdapat gak baby, mcmane tuh?
baik xpyh planning ek? tu makne nye rezeki di tgn tuhan kan?

orang mcmni mmg x pyh di ajar. kalo kot ye pun ada org planning, its not your place pun to ask because malu la sket. kita kan orang melayu, penuh adat istiadat. ces kan aku da membebel padahal aku nak cerita benda lain.

ok back to the main story-mory i..heheh

kami sangat bahagia semalam. sgt lovey-dovey. hahah. i forced him to take leave, itupun half day. i had to lepak at my office to wait for him. after he settled all his work, then we went to Public Mutual to settle few things (anyone interested please contact me. heh). then, suddenly he said,'jom kita pergi lunch. sayang mesti nak lunch dengan fazana kan?' heheh. nak la, kan da dekat time tuh. so, i called my bestfriend and told her we are on the way. we had lunch at Kopitian, just below her office. food was delicious, especially the chilli tempe. so orgasmic. heh. plus cik faza kita yang belanja. :)

kami yang menggediks

pekan mee rebus..bole tahan la beb

then, we went to bank islam at KL Sentral. seem its the day for visiting banks. heheh. yela, bila lagi kan because my sayang is always so busy. menyampah i tau. tapi xpe, going to the bank togeda2 pun da gumbira. hahah. we are applying loan for a house. yela, setaun kawen kene cari tempat tinggal. heheh. we found this place in section 15, bangi and we fell in love. at last, finally we could agree on the same house.

after that, kita org pun wandering je around deciding where to go next. suddenly i remembered charles & keith has opened recently. so, off to pavillion. i was a bit disappointed though, the design did not attract me at all like it used to. i dont know, maybe the wrong line came in? boleh ke macam tu? so, jalan2 je. tgk nine west, it's even worse. zaman tuk anun bile ntah still the same old design. pastu bile sale, benda yang sama gak. new arrival pun sama jugak. haish. malaysia kene do something la.

last-last, we bought nothing. nothing that really makes me want to buy. tapi tipu la xde but the things that i want is totally out of the question la kan? heheh. so, kitorg pun lepak kat j.co je. sambil melahap doughnuts and ice-blended cappucino, we talked about our future. and the past too. da lama x sit down and talk like this. sebab dia kan slalu busy tinggal kan aku je. haha.

my sayang

me, just after the second orgasmic doughnut

magrib kat pavillion. then we decided to go to ampang look out point at menara tinjau. a place yang banyak orang ramai telah perkatakan. a place where you can see the whole KL free of charge without going to menara kl and kene bayar plak tuh. the view was quite amazing. you really can see the whole of KL. i bet thats where the drama-drama melayu sering dilakonkan especially part-part bibit asmara tuh. haha.

KL view from Ampang Look Out Point

rase macam berlakon drama melayu - part bercinta diatas bukit :D

we had dinner up there. the wind is quite cold and chilly. plus it just rained so it was misty. there were 3 restaurants to choose from. one serve bbq, another western and last serve arab food. we opted for the arab food (the middle one called Bread & Olive) since it was the least crowded. romantic sket, kata anniversary kan. hahah. the food was nice lah and affordable too. except sayang's roasted chicken was a tad little bit of salty when eating own its own but with rice it's just nice. plus, i know arabs like salty food. and i must say really good service. and i know lah kan because i hate bad customer service. aku bole mengamuk je kat situ tau. boleh la kalau ayah mau blanje kami di sana.. heheh

our appetiser: zatayer (arab version of pizza)

mine: lamb shwarma

hep, don't touch my chips!

sayang with his briyani roasted chicken

we went back happy and full. it wasn't much but i really enjoyed it because i got him to myself the whole day. to those who wished us, thanks yaw!

us: yang sangat happy :P

and to sayang, happy anniversary. hope we will be happy for the rest of our lives. and thank you for making me so happy on our special day. hehe :)

p/s: i promised myself i will make an entry on the previous trip to langkawi. we'll see how time allows me to mebuang masa. hehe