where my absent-mindedness has lead to...

i am feeling shite.

yesterday, i got off work earlier and went to pick up Sayang at his work. we planned to watch Hancock and berbuka puasa at Alamanda. ok lah tu kan.

as usual, my mind will always wanders and imagines things. my favourite game is to imagine 'What If'. just for fun sake lah. like, what if im rich in the next 2 years, will i still be using the same car (or will it be a new Honda Accord? ;p) and what bags will be on my arm and so on..you know lah kan..but that is a little fragment of my imagination. heheh.

well, as i were sitting beside Sayang, i was imagining that i am living in England (next 5 years lah). i was listing in my mind the things i would do if i were there. ;p then suddenly, i happen to glance at the petrol meter. oklah, 2 notches, jap lagi kene isi minyak nih. then, my mind went blank. i was trying to figure where the hell did i put my petrol money (i have a small pouch to keep petrol money, its more organised this way ;p). the last time i can recall back is two days ago when i took out the money (which happens to be my anniversary la kan) to fill up at a petrol pump. i gave Sayang RM50 and waited for the change. usually we fill up RM40 but Sayang said takper lah because da blinking meter. i was like, okay.

while waiting for Sayang filling up, and i had nothing to do, i absent-mindedly counted the money. just to see how much is left until next salary. AHA. this is the weird part. i never counted the money because... i dont know. maybe i just want it to be there everytime i took some out. i believe that God is Pemurah, so i bet He will sympathise with me for being selalu kesempitan wang. heheh. and zilch. thats the only thing i remembered what i did with the money. i couldnt remember a thing at all what happen after that.

so, i was sitting quietly when suddenly i lurched and opened the dashboard. just in case i threw it in there. none. Sayang was astonished.

'Sayang, u cari ape?'

'uh...tengah cari duit minyak'

'Baby, tak ingat ke mane simpan?ur handbag xde? korek sume dalam dashboard tuh, mane tau terselit'

'dah...3 kali dah..macamne ek, i cant remember at all what i did with the money'

'ke u ada belanja kot?'

'eh xla kan?!! mesti la i ingat kalau i belanja!'

aku dah memang muka gelabah. somewhere deep in my heart, i believe its somewhere waiting to be found. but i don't know where it is waiting. uwaaaaaaa

i searched the car until we reached home. and i searched some more. Sayang wasn't in the mood anymore. so we cancelled Alamanda. (sedih aku tau). aku sambung cari lagi dalam bilik. mana tau ada terselit kat bawah katil kan. yilek. i was feeling down. Sayang pun macam malas nak ckp dengan aku.

after magrib, he went out with his friend. i went to Ibu's. continuing with the search. still couldnt be found anywhere. my mom, as usual, mestilah bising2 kat aku kan. but i just let her because i know its my own fault.

'ntah-ntah kau ada belanja bukan-bukan tuh. x ingat'

WHY DOES EVERYBODY THINK THAT I USED THE MONEY? AS IF I WOULD FORGET THAT. IF I DO, KILL ME THEN.

pastu dia bg duit. hahah.

'kau bayar balik. ibu bukan nak berkira tapi its time you take responsibilities. tak kesah la brape lama kau nak byr but just pay back'

'ye ke ibu. tapi kan nanti ibu x cukup duit' (saja buat ayat kesian..hahah)

'amek je la tp bayar balik. kau ni. baca Quran tuh. bagi kuat ingatan sket. solat tu, jangan lambat2. jgn laju2 sangat nanti Allah susah nak terima. kau ingat duit ni senang nak dapat ke pkai hilang je?'

'ye la..tau..tapi Allah kan Maha Pemurah. tak payah nak mintak2 kat org, dia terus suruh ibu bagi kat sarah..hehhe'

'eh ke situ plak..bukan bg, bayar balik'

'YELAH'

mak aku ni x sudah2 suruh bayar balik plak. yelah, bulan depan gak saya akan bayar..hehe.. so, when i told Sayang he said why did i accept the money, malu la dia. tapi i kan pandai memujuk.

'xpe sayang. ibu kata nak byr sebulan RM50 pun ok. kalo credit card kan x bole buat mcmtu. mane satu kita nak, loan with interest ke or loan interest-free?'

so, berjaya la saya memujuk ditambah dengan aksi-aksi yang lain..hahah.

bila nak tido malam tuh, i lay watching the ceiling (my favourite past time before i got married). dah lama aku x buat macam tuh. Sayang came out of the toilet and saw me.

'Baby, u duk pkir lagi ke about the money?'

i just kept quiet. well, i didnt know what to say exactly.

'takpe la baby. da memang xde rezeki. lain kali sayang berusaha la ingat ape yang sayang buak ok?'

'ok. sorry susah kan u. i sayang u'

my heart lightened a bit. walaupun mmg salah aku pun. but somehow, i feel that i will find that money. its just a matter of time.

come to think of it, i never ever misplace money. maybe its due to the fact that i tend to spend before placing them anywhere. haha. it shows that my absent-mindedness has reached to the limits.

jadi pemgajaran nya ialah make sure u spend all your money before you misplaced them. baru boleh pening kepala pikir mane hilang duit. macam pempuan bawah ni. kahkahkah.

boleh ke macam tu? kehkehkeh.