the last straw

if there's one thing you should know about my boss, he's a gossipmonger. i heard a saying somewhere that when men gossip, they are even worse than women. and i stand true to this claim.

scenario 1

coming out of a meeting room, i ask, "who was that lady in red kurung?".
meaning, i want to know her position in the company.
his answer will go like this, "ahh, can you believe that she's the second wife to such and such. that's why she's a bit mean and stern.. she must feel so insecured.."

scenario 2

during a discussion on work, he says, "ermm, can you call puan s? she's the one in charge now.."
i say, "oh really, she took over the position now?"
he says, "uhuh, did you know that she took maternity leave for 2 months when in fact she just adopted a newborn baby? people have been talking about it. so, you can imagine bla bla bla..."

scenario 3

heading towards our workstation, he comments, "ahhh, so this baby belongs to wife number...?"
referring to popped up pictures of a colleague's baby daughter.

scenario 4

in a meeting, he declares proudly, "I only got to review the programme's module"...
another declaration, "I manage to increase response rate by 300% than last year, so I should get level 4 for this year.."

scenario 5

walking through the vp's room, he sees vss documents, "oh they are signed already? can i have a look at them?"
the secretary, "no, it's p&c..."
he insists anyway, because a secretary is just a secretary.

scenario 6

his favourite past time, making up stories. there's a lady, single with a good position, who fell in love with him, head over heels. she'd willingly be the second wife. his question, "what would you do in this situation?"
i answer, "just tell her i have a wife whom i love very much and i'm sorry that i don't feel the same way as you do."
his response, "noo!! you can't say that directly, she's in an emotional state, for all we care she could have jump off the building"
me, while walking away, "no wonder men like to cause trouble for being too nice"

scenario 7

he can be so heartless. for someone who declares to be professional in handling situations, he sure does show a display of outrageous emotions. a small mistake, and straight away dismissed. that is, if you are on not-so-good terms with him. else, you could just be another invisible person who couldnt hurt his career in any way.

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there are a lot of things he and others did that made me think, is this what a corporate world is like? you push people over whoever gets in your way, without considering their feelings and thoughts, just so your career wouldnt halt? do you ever think what you are giving your family to eat?

sometimes, i think it's better off that i stay at home. i dont need to answer to anyone's orders except syarif's. i wish i'm eloquent and articulate enough so that i could take up translation jobs. teaching is hard. what else can i do?

miscommunication is THE norm here. for a telecommunications company who boasts of being the country's leading new generation communications provider, sure as hell sucks big time in communications. it's a  good thing that you have your ass covered by the BIG MAN up there or i dont know where you would be...