time glass, an eyeopener

i've been coming to work as early 7.15 for a week, minus yesterday because it seems like aeons i am being good.

what else would i do (besides snoring at work desk) at such ungodly hours than reading my favourite blogs, right?

i was on this blog, http://naidschamber.blogspot.com/, reading about her experience as a PHD student in UK and she mentions a few friends of her who had lost life partners at young age too. so, i hopped onto that blog, http://meenyusuf.blogspot.com/, and i CRIED! i just can't help it, it was so sad and tearful, i can't imagine what she's going through because I can't imagine MYSELF going through the same thing. and i must say that she is such a strong person, regardless the pain she's dealing with... and she has a young daughter too, which made me cry even harder...

that open my eyes, we can never anticipate what could happen in the future. we could plan, save up millions of money, buy a car and a house but all that mean nothing once we are gone from the face of this earth... or if our loved ones should go first before us...

i know i'm a grumpy person by nature, easily irritated by the silliest gesture, and usually the nearest i.e. my husband would get the brunt end. i think over-reaction runs in our family. couldn't put the blame otherwise. ;p

and since we part ways everyday for work, i can really count the hours we spend together a day. minus the time he goes to the mosque, internet, playing games (i blame his iPhone!), family duties and so on. so how many hours, or seconds of quality time left for the both of us? nearly none, and thats why we have to make the best of everything...

i will try to be a good wife from now on. i will try to be calm before getting emotional on silly issues. i will try to be a good sister, a daughter, as a whole person. we could lie to ourselves, telling that we are still young and the future's wide in front of us, sacrificing the people we love just to get what we want. we have to march on, to make the best out of our lives and appreciate the people we love, while we still have time.

because after all, a loved person, once gone, can never replace all the Louis Vuittons in the world.