marilah kita berjoli, mahu?

i'm buggered of the fact that we will miss the bali trip in oct and that person will be back in nov. everything we planned has gone awry. and i didn't ask for additional 2 months of separation (abstinence should be the issue here) but that's what is going to happen, according to the new plan. huh.

being irrational, i thought of booking a flight to bali on the day he arrives but that would be too cruel after all those long hours on the plane. besides, we could end up fighting because i need attention and he would be too tired to see to my gedikness. so, i decided that maybe we could get away in the same week. i am so going to make him take a few days leave. mamat tu banyak gila leave tak habis, tak macam aku kaki ponteng kerja!

gee, i still couldn't absorb the actuality of the added lack-of-love months in my head. i'm being a bit ridiculous, i know, but facing kl at its worst on mornings and evenings, i wish i could just shrivel up and die. it's not that i'm afraid to brave through all the horrid traffic jam but i hate seeing everything closing in upon me. i feel suffocated by the swarm. who would be kind enough to take me in for 2 months? anywhere in ampang? just to make me getting to work much easier. haha.

okay, looking on the bright side, this could be just the right time for me to socialise with people whom i missed in the last couple of months. yeah, being single has its pros and cons. but then, at the end of the day, it's a bit unappealing to come to an empty house, let alone an empty, cold bed. i need to draw up a schedule so that i won't feel so alone and miserable. please, people, come and ask me out okay? i need some lovin' and cuddlin' here.

sigh.