when a lonely woman speaks her mind

the weekend has been very eventful. what with the religiously attacked warehouse sales. i know im broke already even though its still early of the month but i managed to braoke myself even more with a few unnecessary purchases. i just cant resist colours! and god knows when i will use them. hah!

i dont mind helping out with a wedding but just knowing and listening to ridiculous adat is another thing. im okay with certain traditions you know, but if a request is imposed and make the situation harder, might as well not get married at all. because you'll be doing it with remorse and not sincere and end up hating each other. if you are so into traditions, why dont you sit down together and discuss them all out, not just sending messages to and fro and always changing according to your needs. oh yeah, come to think of it, maybe its not because of traditions at all, i bet you want them all for yourselves. opportunists.

i used to think that i can do things alone and dont mind it at all. before i met him, going to movies, malls, or do anything alone was no biggie to me. i could just venture the world all by myself. it was the perfect time to reflect and muse on many things in life. yeah, i used to think i was a philosopher once but now, im a lousy crap so sue me! sekarang, aku nak drive pergi kerja pun kaki macam haram berat nak letak kat peddle! i dont know how im going to survive another 3 weeks. i wont think much of this sebab orang kata bila tak pikir sangat masa akan berlalu begitu cepat skali. ni semua salah you, sayang, making me cacat sebelah tangan. ces.

so, today i will try to make an effort doing chores all by myself. sebab orang tu mengelat x bayar bill sampai habis, aku plak yang kene bersusah payah skrg.

*gruntles*

okay, enough said. am too emotional.