weekend is here already...

and i feel as it was just yesterday the colleagues and i went for mahboub's fix in bangsar. that was last Friday, people. time really flies, so moaning here or whining there will get you nowhere for time waits for no man.

at crucial times as this, i tend to ponder, what have i done so far that i am really proud of? besides the expected expectations, of course. have some of my dreams come true? did i enjoy while chasing them dreams? what sacrifices been done to get what/where i want? looking back on time, some of the good things that happened weren't really part of my plan, nevertheless i count them as blessings. as mere mortals, we succumb to the best intentions of God and personally i think it's a test for me to take further steps towards the right path.

for example, all my life i have been wanting this particular matter to happen, but when you can see it coming nearer and nearer, you stop and doubt, do i really want this? what if it's not right for me? what if something better comes along? what ifs what ifs... humans are so complicated they don't even know what they want, even when things fall into their laps.

well, in my case, i hate making mistakes or bearing the consequences. i just hate to deal with things that could be avoided in the first place. taking in consideration of my true nature, i act upon first instinct without elaborate thinking. that's why husband and i are a couple matched in heaven. i can always depend on him to stop me in track. ;p

again, time is playing tricks on us. i am not getting younger by the second, so i need to get all those ridiculous whims out of my system before i grow old, regretting things didn't happen the way they should.

embrace, embrace!