this one's just for you, baby

one of the happiest days in my life

two years down the road in marriage life.

whew! how time flies. it seems like yesterday we just tied the knot.

there are not enough words in the whole world to describe the life i'm having with you. i'm not saying that we don't have our downs but the ups we have managed to make the bad looks small and to be laughed at. it's every girl's dream to have a perfect wedding and that doesn't exclude me. what made me stick to the ground is that i realise nothing in this world is perfect. sometimes we have to allow imperfections to make things seem balanced. if people can work really hard to make a wedding a lifetime memory, a marriage also requires hard work to make it going. if people come up to me and say they have a perfect marriage, i know something is WRONG, because to me that little confession rings self-denial.

one thing i learn from you, sayang, is that marriage is not a bed of pretty roses but we also have to work on the thorns. we have to handle the thorns in the right way as not to hurt ourselves getting pricked. once pricked you'll hurt a little bit but if you are being pricked in all places, the pain would unbearable. at times, admittedly, i have pricked too many a time and (i'm sorry for all the hurt caused) when i come to my senses, i have always tried to blow away the pain. i can be such a prick (no pun intended!) and i love you for allowing some space for my prickliness.

coming from two different worlds, it's a wonder that we have become one. you being the practical one and i, the dreamer. two different persons with different wants and needs that need a lot of compromise and tolerance on both sides. it's a lifetime effort to make our marriage work but i know deep in my heart, this is the main reason i'm stuck with you. knowing myself getting easily bored by mundane similarities, i believe it's a blessing that i have you to keep me in tow. never a moment i feel bored or restless beside you. you really know how to work me around, eh?

sayang, it's amazing how the simplest things in life can make us really happy. or the stupidest things we've done. at least, we have something to laugh back. masterbathe?

i know i'm not an easy person to be with. i'm the one with crazy mood swings at uncertain time ( what woman doesn't right?), the one who throws tantrums around, who gets easily upset over the smallest thing, with obsessive compulsive urge. if other people wouldn't know what to do with me but you do, in your own special way that can calm me down and make me feel loved.

i love you as you are the only person whom i can be transparent. i can be the sweetest person in the whole wide world and also the ugliest without being judged, harshly.

as i'm writing this, we are parted by different continents and i'm missing you like crazy. it's our first anniversary being apart, i hope it won't be like this in coming years. thank you, sayang, for loving me just the way i am, no more or less. i promise to make you happiest man alive on planet, i'm looking forward to the coming years doing just that. i promise to be a good wife and mother to our babies. amen!

i hope we can meet over the weekend before you shoot off leaving me celibate for months. no woman should be deprived of some lovin'. heh.

happy anniversary, sayang!


*aku tak pandai berjiwang atau meluahkan perasaan walaupun aku kuat berangan.