pergi sekolah nak?

sending nuha to school is an ordeal. she has her own mind and she decides whether she wants to go or not. last week she went for two days only. this week, we have to see. if i can get her to school for a full week, its a big accomplishment.

yesterday, i had to stay with her for half an hour just for her to get used to the surroundings. until her teacher took her away, she looked as if she wanted to cry but didnt. so i went home relieved.

but today, i left her with her teacher, crying. she grabbed my sleeves not wanting me to leave. the teacher assured that nuha will be just fine. i went home, feeling not relieved.

i know that the little kid will be fine because she's a fighter, thats what she is. if she cries too long, that means she's just doing it for the sake of attention. she's more independent than her older sister. she can reason things out, in her own way.

'nuha pergi school okay?'

'g ambat ikit eh?'

'ok'

have to follow her tune though. sometimes, its quite bad too because then she'll throw tantrums if things dont go her way. if i have kids one day, i wouldnt want to spend the whole day at school, accompanying them. yes, i know, they're small children, but at certain point they need to get in touch with the society. they have to learn to interact. its not healthy if they scream their lungs out when you leave them at one place.

tapi because she's someone else's, i feel a bit guilty. i hope she's okay when i fetch her. i know she will but she dont forget things easily though. mesti esok taknak pergi sekolah lagi. ish, habis la cita-cita aku to get her to school for a week straight.