im living in a dizzy world

i haven't slept a wink the whole night. something got into me. i tried many things to get to sleep but to no avail. blare the tv. switched on the aircond and off later on when it got too cold. the on the fan. put on the lights. (i usually sleep better with the lights on, an act of having to shut eyes in order to block out lights. very effective i tell you.) did a little bit of beading. some reading. but no. i couldn't sleep at all. in fact, all the things i have done took up the whole night.

and for the first time ever in my life (my career life that is) i went to work as early as 6.45am. i had nothing to do, literally. so might as well get my ass to work. gosh, i never knew that water can be so cold in the wee morning. i wished i have a heater then, but knowing me, i never showered in hot water, except for hotels. no matter how cold it is. just trying to keep mind occupied wishing for things that are a bit way off.

and because im trying out my friend's way of diet, which is no food to be taken after 7pm, (nothing at all!), you can imagine how hungry i am staying up all night. so i decided to reward myself a good hearty breakfast but when i passed by the stalls, tetiba tidak kepingin pun. so i got to office at 7.30am, hungry but not wanting to eat. gila depressed.

now its nearing 10am and im dizzy and hungry. i wonder if i can bear until afternoon? i think i'll do it for the sake of testing my self-will. since i got nothing else better to do.

o yeah, im glad he's coming home today. nak mintak tolong dia urut2 badan. ;p